Stuck in a creative suck-hole
I have an itch for a creative outlet that is in desperate need of scratching. I’ve been hovering over some of my favorite art and photography sites lately, longing to create, but there just doesn’t seem to be enough extra time in the day, week, month, year, lifetime to do it. I doodle from time to time, sure, but nothing substantial lately. (You can see some of my past doodlings here and here) I’ve been longing to create some grand masterpiece of a photo, but I haven’t touched my camera. Well, I did snap a couple of the full moon a couple nights back, but I still can’t get the settings quite right to capture what my mind’s eye sees. The brief euphoria of actually getting paid to shoot has finally passed and I’m looking around desperately for my next fix. Serious withdrawals here!
With school drawing to a close, I am tempted to take a photography class over the summer. The kidlets will be gone for most of the summer save a week here and there, so I will (should) have lots of free time on my hands. Mr. W and I plan to do a little traveling, sans children, but our planning never seems to turn out just right, so I won’t hold my breath. I should take a class. I want to take a class. If I don’t sign up soon, though, I know me…I won’t do it at all. On top of that, if I don’t like the class for whatever reason, I won’t go, and that’s just a waste of money.
My little spark of my dream came and went so fast it left me spinning and now I’m not sure what to do. I set up my website, but haven’t touched it in months. I’ve been meaning to draw a new tattoo for me, and possibly take a couple other samples up to my local (fabulous) tattoo artist in hopes he might display some of my stuff, but I just haven’t gotten a real spark of inspiration. I’m in a rut and I’m stuck and I don’t really know how to get out of it. Or maybe it’s just that I haven’t had a reason to get out of it, or I just don’t want to get out of it…hmmm…has my perpetual whininess found a new home? When allmost else is on plus side, is my subconscious sabotaging me to maintain a place to throw tantrums? Maybe I should schedule another reiki appointment!
